Five Minute Friday: Searching for Home

Mom: “So, do you plan to live here for the rest of your life?”
Me: “Yes. We like it here.”
Mom: “Good! Can I live with you?”
Me: “Of course!”
Mom: “Good! I was worried about where I would live. Anmoore West Virginia is gone now.”

A sweet conversation from March 1, 2018, one year ago today.

Momma still searches for home. Day and night. When she isn’t sleeping, eating, or contentedly coloring, she is anxiously folding and packing her belongings in her purse, wrapping treasured photos in her blankets, looking out of her bedroom window – searching and very ready for her mom and dad to finally come here in their car and take her home. Home, in her mind, is somewhere in West Virginia where she was born and raised, and where the only memories Alzheimer’s has left behind still reside.

Momma is under home hospice care now.

There. I’ve said it. Hospice.

As hard as the reality of the need for hospice care is to fathom, I’m so very grateful for the extra measure of help the truly amazing CNAs and nurses are giving me in this home stretch of Momma’s search for home.

I’m not sure when she will go home. They say six months or less. I don’t think so. I don’t know when, but I do know it won’t be Arthur Peet coming to get her in the family car. And I know “home” won’t be Anmoore, West Virginia. Or Bridgeport or Clarksburg, either.

Momma’s trip home will begin with her heavenly Father coming to call for her. Her search will be over as she finds herself finally home in heaven with her Savior.

This post was brought to you courtesy of Five Minute Friday (hosted by Kate Motaung) and the word “search.” Writers set a timer for five minutes, free write on the word prompt and publish it on our blog so the whole world (well, our little corner, anyway) can read it! Learn more about the writing challenge at Five Minute Friday.

Author: barefootlilylady

Wife of one, mother of 2+2, and Grandma of 6 (3 girls and 3 boys!) and full-time caregiver for my sweet Momma with Alzheimer's. Passionate about Jesus, grandkids, Awana Clubs, gardens, quilts and cooking.

5 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday: Searching for Home”

  1. What a beautiful post about your momma! Thank you for sharing . . . and thank you for serving your mother as her caregiver. What a gift you are giving her, even if she doesn’t seem to realize it. And what precious lessons you are teaching your own children. your fmf neighbor at #25


  2. This is a beautiful post! It must be so hard to see your mother searching anxiously like that, but comforting to realise that one day she will be home, safe with Jesus. Visiting from FMF #6.

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    1. Yes, that Blessed Hope those who have trusted in Jesus as Savior have is such a comfort. The past few days have been so difficult for Momma and I know that things will get harder as this wicked disease takes its toll. I know my Momma longs to be home “safe with Jesus” and that this is just a temporary affliction in light of eternity with Him.

      Thanks for dropping by, Lesley. Now I’ll head on over to FMF #6 and see what you’re writing about today.

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  3. A bittersweet thought. Yes, your mom will be so much better off, and will have her memories again, but, you will be without her, and there will be a hole in your life. But God is with us during these times.
    Hugs and Prayers,
    Jo Dee

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  4. I think you’re right, Jo Dee. This extra time with my mom has allowed us to grow extra-close as mother and daughter. But, I also think God may be allowing things to get harder in order that my heart will be more prepared to let go when that time comes. But the void will definitely be there until we meet again in heaven…that blessed Hope.

    I love your insights, sweet friend. Thanks for stopping by to read and comment. God bless you and yours.


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